i think that i should really stop reading blogs that bring me down.
sometimes i feel like i should stop having a blog altogether.
the thought of going all the way to live journal seems to be the best choice.
and i can el-jay all i want and no one know except for a chosen few.
i'm very tempted for the fact that LJ is already up.

having headaches in class is seriously not helping.
but the love all around is.

i guess the emotional periods are now over.
since wallowing in self pity is something that i have grown out of.
since that faithful day.

yesterday seems to be different from what i expected.
because everything seems to be a matter of fact until the funeral.
no wonder laurie said that its okay to cry.
because sometimes emotion cannot be controlled.
at the end of it all.
he's still my father.
full stop.

i think my head is aching more.
maybe because i'm drinking.
and its in school and its not allowed.
i only took two sips.

my mood has been like a rollercoaster for the past fifteen minutes.
its not good for the heart.
like how some research has shown that when your mood changes, you weight changes at the same time.
but since ben said that i have a high fat percentage, i should probably lose most of it.
get myself some muscle.
even though i have no bloody intention of going to the gym anytime soon.

fatty acid synthesis is what i'm doing now and i have no idea what on earth i'm reading.
alright then.
its times like this i have to prove to myself that i'm smart.

kaira,
i'll have mi-lo for you anytime.
like my hugs and my trying ability to comfort.
i may not know whats going on.
but i dont need to know to comfort now do i?
my hugs are here for you anytimes.
just like how i'm here for you anytime.

E35L,
God bless you all.
cause when the sun shines we'll shine together.
and we'll make it through.
i hope.
my happy pills.

ben seems to be the only person who thinks that talking is troublesome.
but its alright now.
because now i know that you only believe in logic.